Today my thoughts are: "Not everything is as it seems.""Not every post has to radiate positivity.""Dreams are really telling." I've been sitting in depressive episodes just about all week. I say just about because there have been peaks of happiness, but the melancholiness that sits in my shadows continue to persist. I refrain from writing … Continue reading LA CAMPANA DE CRISTAL
It’s been a long time since I’ve allowed myself to reflect on the current changes in my life. And somehow I think laid up in bed at 4:41 in the morning is the right time to do so. Laying in bed accepting my fate that long nights are now apart of my forevers. In the … Continue reading Them Changes: UAPC + LA.B
I’m learning that we can’t save everyone or anyone, for that matter, if we can’t even find the means and the reasons to save ourselves. It’s so easy to find the potential in someone else. It’s sometimes simple to find the light in others that they struggle with, or do not see for themselves. I … Continue reading Save yourself.
advice to self when having a crisis of faith and of character meditate contemplate reflect on the transience of all things living and already expired…no. 112
u2me: tangibly It scares me when I can’t remember moments of us Pieces of your face The details of your eyes The curves of your smile It scares the shit out of me A slight panic begins to erupt in me And my throats instantly feels like it’s closing in on itself But then i … Continue reading Trying to Actively Remember:
The older I get the more I notice how much shit I harbor from my childhood, my relationships (platonic or romantic), or just any shitty past circumstance/situation. All of these unresolved emotions and questions just haunt me more and more as time passes. I almost feel like they just start to ingrain themselves into my … Continue reading Learning 2 Let Go
I feel drained.I feel uncomfortable. I feel unhappy. I feel helpless. I feel unwanted. I feel unsure. I feel lost at sea. But I am the captain of my own ship. How does one shut negative feelings off? I've never believed in anything but positive psychology -- yet I feel as deep and as blue … Continue reading Oh Captain, My Captain
At what point do you become the superhero human you always dreamt yourself to be?When does all of the confusion shift from being an illusion to real life gratitude and substance? Last time I remember being a super human was in high school. I mean - that's when you start feeling like your true self … Continue reading Tainted