Oh Captain, My Captain

I feel drained.

I feel uncomfortable.

I feel unhappy.

I feel helpless.

I feel unwanted.

I feel unsure.

I feel lost at sea.

But I am the captain of my own ship.

How does one shut negative feelings off?

I’ve never believed in anything but positive psychology — yet I feel as deep and as blue as the unknown sea amongst us.

I could scream…but my lungs would just fill up with water.

I could cry…but tears would be masked and intertwined by the heaviness around me anyway.

I’ve been working on swimming upward — but I feel like I’m not moving.

I feel alone.

I am drowning, today. Tomorrow, I hope to master floating.

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